I am NOT Trichotillomania

Hi my name is Genevieve and I have trichotillomania. I've had it since I was 12 and I am 18 years old as of now. I will not let trichotillomania define me.


P.S. I follow back ;)

Guys, I’m embarrassed

Hey, it’s been wayy too fucking long since I’ve been on here, and I’m gonna give you an update.

Well, first of all, I haven’t been pull free since my relapse.. I’m killing myself, but the pulling.. it feels so damn good. like it’s like a drug or something.  I’m gonna try my hardest though, because Trich will not define me.  

My relapse started when I was stressing about passing my Econ class (which I didn’t pass by the way) and the final was like the make it or break it type point in the quarter, so I was so stressed.  On top of that.. I had 3 other finals, and a whole bunch of shit going on with my gpa, and I am NOT doing to well in school right now.

College is hard, I’m on my own.. no one is on my ass, and telling me to do my homework.. or study. and there is no leniency as to whether a teacher will fail you or not.  I paid 700 dollars for a class that I failed.. I’m sucha failure.  

I have like a million coarse hairs in my head that I just don’t want in my head any more, so i just PULL.  I need to stop guys.. 

I was the person with 100+ days pull-free, now I’m the person that has relapsed from a 100+ pull free track record.  Sorry guys, I am no longer an inspiration.  

This isn’t a post to make you guys sympathize or pity me, this is a post letting you guys know that I feel terribly awful for letting you guys down, and extremely embarrassed that I even tried to avoid it. 

I’ve been pull free for half an hour.. I’m gonna do this, and I’ll inspire you guys once again.

THIS. IS. A. PROMISE.

I have a confession to make..

Well, okay. HERE GOES

     This past week, was FINALS WEEK. and you’ll never guess what I did.. actually you can.  I PULLED.  and it wasn’t the type of pulling I’ve told you guys before, where I kinda looked past it and went on with my pull free counting.  I’m over 100 days pull free.  I can’t believe I relapsed.  I really didn’t need to, but I did.  I havent’ even told my best friend.  She checks up on this blog somethings, but a part of me is hoping she doesn’t read this.  It’s so disappointing.  

     So let me ask you a question guys, should I make an exception because it was the night before all my finals? Or should I start back at 0? I really want to keep it, but tell me guys, is it wrong???

christal-clear:

lizywkim:

starryeyedlunatic:

fucksociety95:

this picture should have more then the amounts of notes it has, this shows us that not ever thing is “picture perfect” and that behind that smile and those eyes there is fear . So i beg you to please reblog this instead of a pair of shoes, someone smoking a blunt, and clothes … because this picture is literally worth 1,000 words 

This is insanely powerful.

lizywkim:

wow, please reblog this.

i’m sad now.

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I went to a Gamestop to turn in a Playstation 2 slim that I had put towards a full preorder of Bayonetta for my brother to go with the 360 I bought him.

I noticed this raggedy looking kid that was poking around, looking real excited, and he turns to his mom, who’s wearing a grey sweatshirt with cigarette burns and grey sweatpants, obviously super poor. The kid goes “Oh wow, mom, look how cool this one looks!” and he picks up a copy of Gitaroo Man, for the PS2. I was pretty impressed, because that’s probably my second favorite game of all time.

His mom says, pretty gruffly, “That don’t look like it’ll fit in your Gameboy. That’s what we came here to get.” I guess they were Christmas shopping early. It made me kinda sad because the kid looked to be maybe 9 or 10, and he didn’t believe in Santa anymore. The kid looked kinda sad and put it back, then started staring at which GBA game he wanted.

I’ve been pretty depressed for the last couple weeks, but I was kinda happy that this was something I could do something about. So, I did. I turned around and bought the copy of Gitaroo Man, Metal Gear Solid 3 and Gungrave: Overdose (some of my favorite games) then I handed him the bag full of everything, the PS2, the two controllers I had with it and the games. He looked at me and asked why I did and told him, “Because Santa sent me.” And then I looked up at his mom and his mom was crying, and that made me cry, and I left Gamestop a blubbering mess.

Felt fucking great, man.

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K-e-y-b-l-a-d-3: TO THE PEOPLE WITH TRICH:

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every single one of you is GORGEOUS.
i looked through a few blogs of girls and boys with trichotillomania, and you’re all beautiful. with eyebrows, eyelashes, head hair, or without it, you’re all amazing. i know what you’re going through and i feel the same pain. but i know that if you all believe…